The Journey That Awakened Me

After nearly 30 years of marriage, I found myself starting over, emotionally, spiritually, and soul-deep. I never expected the path that would unfold. A Connection I Couldn't Explain After my divorce, I began dating someone I had known for years. He wasn’t my type, not even close. We disagreed on nearly everything. But there was something about him I couldn’t shake. A pull. An energetic thread I didn’t yet understand. When he heard I was newly single, he asked me to dinner. We talked for hours, and something clicked. I don’t think I was his type either, yet we felt unexpectedly comfortable together. We continued dating. He felt like home. But life began to test us. Stressful circumstances strained our connection. Arguments became frequent, and he started withdrawing, his affection, his time, his presence. One day, I asked: “Do you even want to be with me?” His answer: “I don’t know.” My response: “Then don’t be.” And just like that, it ended. The Pain That Followed At first, I was relieved. I thought I’d closed the door for good. But days later, something cracked open in my chest, a grief and longing I couldn’t understand. It felt unbearable. I found myself on my knees, crying, begging the Universe: “What do I need to do to get him back?” The answer came clear as day, from deep within me: “Learn to love yourself first.” A Sudden Spiritual Awakening That was the beginning. It was like the Universe dropped me straight into the fire of healing. I started exploring places I never thought I’d go, metaphysical shops, spiritual circles, healing spaces. I received a reading that shattered my old perspective. I realized I didn’t have to follow the strict religious programming I’d grown up with. I didn’t need to choose between God and freedom. I could be spiritual, intuitive, whole, without being part of a religion that had caused me harm. For the first time in my life, I gave myself permission to explore. Finding Myself Again I dove into meditation, Reiki, crystals, tarot, oracle cards, pendulums, all the tools that spoke to my spirit. I discovered a beautiful community that accepted me fully, without shame, judgment, or fear. For the first time in over 50 years, I felt peace. I felt seen. I felt free. I began to understand who I was beyond the pain, beyond the programming, beyond the silence. I discovered my purpose. I discovered me. The Mystery of the Twin Flame Still, I couldn’t shake the longing for that one soul. It consumed my thoughts. I needed answers. That’s when I found a class about twin flames. Everything clicked. I wasn’t losing my mind, I was awakening to a deeper truth. The instructor became a friend, a guide, a lifeline. She taught me how to move through the intensity, to pull my focus back into the present, to quiet the storm inside. Through her, I understood that this soul was not here to be my partner… He was here to be my mirror. To ignite my transformation. To wake me up. “It was time to heal. Time to let go of pain, of shame, of the belief that I was never enough.” I started shedding layers of trauma, addiction, and self-destruction. I began to rebuild from the inside out. And in the process, I discovered my own intuitive gifts, my deep knowing, my power, my voice. Why I’m Sharing This Now This journey has been one of the hardest I’ve ever walked. And it’s one I’ve kept mostly private, until now. Today, I feel called to speak it aloud. Because I am stepping into another season of healing. I am digging deeper, reclaiming a voice and power that was silenced, as I struggle with allowing myself to be fully seen and heard, not just in this life, but in others. I am honoring the path that brought me here. And I hope, if you're walking your own fire right now, you know you're not alone.