One Soul, Many Lifetimes: Reclaiming My Voice Through Past Life Healing

Working in the garden and moving through the rhythms of the house, I found myself entering that quiet space where thoughts untangle and the deeper truths begin to rise. These simple, grounding tasks often clear the clutter in my mind, allowing the soft nudges of the Universe to make their way through. As part of my healing journey, I’ve been diving into some past life work, work that directly connects to a relationship I’m in now. A relationship that, in many ways, is not functional. One where I’ve often felt silenced, spiritually stifled, and disconnected from my sense of self. But what I came to realize today runs deeper than the surface experience of this lifetime. This person, this soul I’m in a relationship with now, is the same soul from a past life I’ve been working to heal. One soul, two different lifetimes… perhaps even more. The energy between us is strong, familiar, and complex. In that past life, I believe he played an active role in silencing me and keeping me from my spiritual practice. And although in this lifetime he hasn’t spoken words to directly suppress me, I’ve still felt the same pressure. I’ve hidden parts of myself, my rituals, my herbs, my connection to the unseen, for fear of judgment or rejection that was never explicitly stated. That fear, I now understand, doesn’t entirely belong to this version of us. It’s an echo. A soul memory. A wound still seeking light. I’m not excusing the toxicity that exists in our current dynamic. There are patterns that are harmful and must be acknowledged. But in recognizing the roots of my spiritual suppression, I’m able to soften. To release some of the resentment. To see the thread more clearly and take steps to untangle it. And I have been. In the last few days, I’ve begun practicing my herbal craft out in the open again, even in his presence. I’ve stopped waiting for him to leave to do what feels sacred. These are small but powerful steps forward. Moments of reclaiming my voice, not just in this life, but across lifetimes. That’s the nature of deep healing, it isn’t just about the now. Sometimes, the weight we carry comes from stories that started long before this lifetime. And when we begin to see that, we open the door to profound release, and the reclamation of who we’ve always been. I share this with you as part of my ongoing journey. Because healing isn’t always about fixing what’s broken in the present, it’s about remembering, honoring, and finally giving voice to what was silenced long ago.

With love, Jana